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After a long break when writing seems to be mandate....ūü§Ēūüėč Something i have never thought before about your persona of timeless beauty these mysterious spy eyes, engulf with thousands of treasures inside the more I try to evacute the secrets the more I reach out to doors that silently letting me helpless on bay of … Continue reading Thought…

“Silent Defiance” a poetic beauty

I am so glad to announce that my favorite instagram poetess bud is now published poetess with her first book on floor. The book is blend of lovely verses for all poetry lovers. The book is available on amazon and you can have this book on your shelves by clicking here ūüĎČ Silent Defiance You … Continue reading “Silent Defiance” a poetic beauty

Will meet you someday.. life!!

‚ÄúAlisha‚Ķ.come¬†here¬†my¬†doll‚Ķ.Did¬†you¬†like¬†him‚Ä̬†my¬†father¬†asked¬†me ‚ÄúYes‚Ķ‚ÄĚI¬†nodded¬†with¬†happiness¬†in¬†my¬†eyes¬†&¬†forehead. That‚Äôs¬†first¬†time¬†I¬†ever¬†saw¬†my¬†father¬†in¬†dilemma‚Ķ.a¬†worry‚Ķsomething¬†which¬†I¬†never¬†felt¬†since¬†I¬†opened¬†my¬†eyes¬†in¬†the¬†world¬†of¬†my¬†happy¬†happy¬†family‚Ķ..although¬†he¬†knew¬†that¬†Varun¬†will¬†keep¬†his¬†daughter¬†more¬†happier¬†than¬†any¬†other¬†guy¬†in¬†this¬†world¬†but¬†he¬†wanted¬†to¬†know¬†my¬†answer¬†&¬†I¬†was¬†happy¬†with¬†my¬†parents¬†call. ‚ÄúAlisha¬†didi¬†(sister)‚Ķ.i¬†have¬†a¬†surprise¬†for¬†you‚ÄĚNihaal¬†saying¬†in¬†cheerful¬†voice ‚ÄúWhat¬†surprise¬†‚ÄúI¬†replied¬†curiously ‚ÄúI¬†will¬†tell¬†you‚Ķ.but¬†for¬†the¬†time¬†being,¬†it‚Äôs¬†enough¬†for¬†you¬†that¬†I¬†have¬†a¬†surprise¬†for¬†you¬†&¬†by¬†the¬†way,¬†now¬†you¬†are¬†sister¬†of¬†IITian¬†and¬†its¬†my¬†turn¬†to¬†pay¬†you¬†off‚ÄĚNihaal¬†with¬†more¬†cheerful¬†voice¬†this¬†time ‚ÄúAre¬†you¬†coming¬†on¬†rakhi¬†the¬†next¬†week‚Ä̬†I¬†asked¬†him ‚ÄúSorry,¬†sister‚Ķi¬†already¬†planned¬†a¬†trip¬†with¬†friends¬†‚Ä̬†he¬†replied ‚ÄúNever¬†mind‚Ķgo‚Ķyou¬†never¬†know¬†when¬†you¬†guys¬†will¬†meet¬†again‚ÄĚi¬†said ‚ÄúI¬†knew,¬†my¬†sister¬†will¬†understand¬†me‚Ķwill¬†come¬†here¬†after¬†my¬†trip‚Ķ.and¬†important¬†note‚Ķ.i¬†need¬†some‚Ķ‚ÄĚhe¬†murmured ‚ÄúI¬†will‚Ķ20,000¬†will¬†do¬†‚ÄúI¬†replied¬†to¬†his¬†unsaid¬†words ‚ÄúLove¬†you¬†my¬†dear¬†sister¬†‚Äúhe¬†replied¬†happily ‚ÄúOk‚ĶOk‚Ķsee‚ĶNisha¬†is¬†calling‚Ķsee¬†you¬†and¬†enjoy¬†‚ÄúI¬†ended ‚ÄúHey‚ĶAlisha¬†didi..Need¬†to¬†talk¬†to¬†urgently‚Ķ.very¬†imp..Will¬†come¬†to¬†your¬†office¬†in¬†lunch¬†"Nisha¬†in¬†excited¬†voice ‚ÄúNow‚Ķwhats¬†that‚Ķhad¬†urgent¬†meeting¬†today¬†‚ÄúI¬†replied ‚ÄúI¬†saw¬†pics‚ĶIts¬†Nihaal¬†with¬†a¬†girl¬†everywhere‚Ķ‚Ķits¬†seemed¬†to¬†be¬†something¬†between¬†them‚ÄĚ ‚Äúhaaaahaaaa‚Ķ..ok¬†will¬†catch¬†you¬†at¬†my¬†office‚Ķ.got¬†to¬†go‚ÄĚI¬†said¬†and¬†sail¬†down¬†to¬†the¬†memory¬†lane. It¬†was¬†the¬†last¬†semester¬†of¬†college¬†and¬†I¬†already¬†had¬†some¬†dreams¬†for¬†future¬†as¬†everything¬†was¬†happening¬†in¬†a¬†short¬†time¬†period,¬†engagement¬†with¬†Varun‚Ķbest¬†campus¬†placement‚Ķeverything¬†was¬†good.I¬†was¬†dreaming¬†for¬†my¬†sweet¬†future¬†with¬†open¬†shallow¬†eyes.¬†It¬†was¬†my¬†last¬†exam¬†and¬†I¬†was¬†on¬†the¬†way¬†to¬†home¬†with¬†my¬†friends‚Ķall¬†of¬†sudden¬†a¬†call¬†changed¬†the¬†course¬†of¬†my¬†life‚Ķ ‚ÄúAlisha‚Ķ.done¬†with¬†the¬†exam"¬†my¬†uncle¬†in¬†mourning¬†voice ‚ÄúYes‚Ķinfact¬†‚ĶI¬†will¬†board¬†the¬†bus¬†in¬†sometime‚Ķ.why¬†you¬†sounds¬†so¬†bad"¬†I¬†had¬†replied ‚ÄúNothing‚Ķnothing‚Ķ,¬†at¬†what¬†time¬†you¬†will¬†supposed¬†to¬†come¬†tomorrow‚ĶI¬†will¬†be¬†there¬†for¬†your¬†pick¬†up¬†"he¬†had¬†said ‚ÄúWhere's¬†daddy,¬†he¬†had¬†said¬†that¬†he¬†would¬†come¬†to¬†pick¬†me‚ĶLike¬†always‚Ķ What‚Äôs¬†the¬†matter,¬†uncle¬†‚Ķ.everything's¬†all¬†right¬†there¬†at¬†home¬†"I¬†replied¬†in¬†worried¬†voice? ‚ÄúYes‚ĶYes‚Ķdear,¬†actually¬†your¬†parents¬†went¬†to¬†attend¬†a¬†wedding¬†and¬†will¬†be¬†back¬†by¬†tommorow¬†evening¬†so¬†i¬†will¬†come¬†and¬†pick¬†you¬†and¬†you¬†can¬†stay¬†with¬†us¬†till¬†they¬†will¬†return,¬†nothing¬†to¬†worry¬†about¬†it,¬†your¬†father¬†called¬†me¬†as¬†there's¬†some¬†network¬†issue¬†too¬†‚ÄĚUncle¬†said ‚ÄúOk‚Ķ.‚Ä̬†I¬†replied I¬†tried¬†to¬†call¬†varun¬†many¬†times¬†but¬†he¬†was¬†not¬†picking¬†my¬†call,¬†I¬†was¬†not¬†able¬†to¬†sleep¬†as¬†well‚Ķeach¬†and¬†every¬†minute¬†was¬†like¬†hours¬†of¬†century¬†at¬†that¬†moment¬†as¬†no¬†one¬†had¬†picked¬†the¬†call..neither¬†anyone¬†else¬†nor¬†Nihaal¬†and¬†Nisha.The¬†next¬†morning¬†my¬†uncle¬†came¬†to¬†pick¬†me¬†and¬†we¬†were¬†on¬†the¬†on¬†our¬†way¬†to¬†home. As¬†I¬†stepped¬†in..I¬†saw¬†crowd¬†in¬†front¬†of¬†my¬†home,¬†people¬†mouning¬†and¬†my¬†parents¬†were¬†wrapped¬†in¬†musk¬†white¬†sheets,¬†sleeping¬†like¬†innocent¬†children..i¬†tried¬†my¬†best¬†to¬†wake¬†them¬†up ‚ÄúYesterday‚Ķthey¬†met¬†with¬†an¬†accident¬†and‚Ķ‚Ķ.‚ÄĚuncle¬†with¬†grief¬†in¬†voice ‚ÄúAnd‚Ķ.they¬†died¬†‚ÄúI¬†replied¬†in¬†strong¬†voice I¬†was¬†shocked¬†but¬†gathered¬†myself¬†and¬†all¬†of¬†sudden¬†I¬†felt¬†the¬†voice¬†of¬†life¬†loading¬†me¬†with¬†the¬†responsibility¬†of¬†an¬†elder¬†sister¬†towards¬†my¬†younger¬†sister¬†&¬†brother. My¬†father¬†once¬†took¬†some¬†loan¬†from¬†Varun‚Äôs¬†father¬†and¬†promised¬†him¬†to¬†return¬†it¬†with¬†due¬†interest..that‚Äôs¬†dowry.¬†I¬†heard¬†him¬†showing¬†his¬†concerns¬†to¬†my¬†uncle¬†that¬†now¬†he¬†has¬†no¬†interest¬†in¬†Varun's¬†marriage¬†with¬†me‚Ķin¬†fact¬†I¬†told¬†him¬†that¬†even¬†it¬†was¬†not¬†my¬†cup¬†of¬†tea¬†to¬†kept¬†any¬†sort¬†of¬†relation¬†with¬†his¬†family. I¬†know¬†Varun¬†loved¬†me¬†so¬†much¬†so¬†he¬†came¬†to¬†me¬†but¬†with¬†a¬†irresistible¬†deal¬†to¬†leave¬†Nihaal¬†&¬†Nisha¬†with¬†my¬†Uncle¬†and¬†Aunty¬†and¬†fly¬†with¬†him¬†to¬†USA‚Ķ..I¬†refused¬†him¬†and¬†he¬†never¬†came¬†back¬†to¬†me¬†after¬†that¬†day¬†I¬†made¬†myself¬†busy¬†in¬†fulfilling¬†dreams¬†of¬†my¬†parents¬†and¬†family. Nisha¬†became¬†fashion¬†designer¬†chose¬†her¬†life¬†partner¬†and¬†got¬†happily¬†married¬†and¬†Nihaal¬†got¬†selected¬†in¬†IIT¬†and¬†became¬†engineer¬†and¬†as¬†I¬†thought¬†that¬†my¬†responsibilities¬†are¬†over..Nisha¬†told¬†me¬†about¬†Nihaal‚Äôs¬†relationship¬†with¬†some¬†girl. ‚ÄúAlisha‚Ķits¬†enough¬†girl‚Ķnow¬†think¬†of¬†yourself¬†too‚Ķits¬†not¬†easy¬†to¬†spend¬†life¬†alone¬†and¬†at¬†one¬†point¬†of¬†time¬†everyone¬†seeking¬†someone¬†besides¬†them,¬†its¬†not¬†easy¬†to¬†walk¬†upon¬†alone¬†on¬†your¬†own.You¬†already¬†devoted¬†your¬†years¬†in¬†their¬†upbringing‚Ķ.and¬†when¬†it‚Äôs¬†their¬†turn¬†to¬†think¬†something¬†for¬†you¬†instead¬†they¬†just¬†thinking¬†for¬†their¬†lives‚ÄĚSneha¬†my¬†best¬†friend¬†said¬†in¬†stubborn¬†voice ‚ÄúSo¬†what‚Ķwhom¬†will¬†they¬†speak¬†their¬†concerns‚Ķ..‚ÄĚI¬†replied ‚Äúbut¬†what¬†about¬†your¬†life‚Ķ..see¬†I¬†know¬†you¬†love¬†them¬†but¬†‚Ķwill¬†they¬†ever¬†think¬†about¬†you¬†and¬†your¬†choices¬†‚ÄĚSneha¬†in¬†more¬†rigid¬†voice ‚ÄúThat‚Äôs¬†none¬†of¬†your¬†business‚ĶI¬†will¬†find¬†someone¬†one¬†day‚ÄĚI¬†replied¬†this¬†time¬†more¬†stubborn¬†manner ‚ÄúOk‚Ķdon‚Äôt¬†spoil¬†your¬†mood‚Ķall¬†set¬†‚Ķwhat¬†will¬†be¬†the¬†timings¬†of¬†your¬†bus,¬†I¬†will¬†drop¬†you‚ÄĚshe¬†smiled ‚ÄúTake¬†care¬†and¬†please¬†some¬†wishes¬†for¬†me¬†too‚ĶJai¬†Mata¬†ki‚ÄĚshe¬†said I¬†wished¬†to¬†visit¬†Vaishno¬†Devi¬†when¬†everything¬†will¬†be¬†in¬†place¬†and¬†it‚Äôs¬†the¬†time. Everyone¬†in¬†the¬†bus¬†are¬†with¬†their¬†family,¬†friends,siblings¬†and¬†their¬†loved¬†one¬†except¬†me¬†that¬†gave¬†me¬†a¬†sense¬†of¬†emptiness¬†in¬†life¬†that¬†I¬†could¬†share¬†with¬†me¬†only. I¬†came¬†back¬†and¬†looking¬†for¬†reality¬†that¬†is¬†emptiness¬†and¬†lonliness.¬†Nihaal¬†is¬†coming¬†after¬†a¬†long¬†time¬†so¬†I¬†am¬†little¬†excited¬†for¬†him. ‚ÄúAnushka‚Ķthe¬†name¬†of¬†the¬†girl¬†and¬†her¬†parents¬†will¬†come¬†after¬†three¬†days¬†didi‚Ķ‚ÄĚNihaal¬†said¬†convincingly ‚ÄúAllright,¬†I¬†will¬†call¬†uncle¬†and¬†aunty¬†too¬†after¬†all¬†they¬†are¬†our¬†elders¬†and¬†their¬†presence¬†is¬†effective‚Ä̬†I¬†replied And¬†Nihaal¬†broke¬†into¬†happiness ‚ÄúOh¬†my¬†god‚Ķ.what‚Äôs¬†happening,¬†elder¬†sister¬†is¬†still¬†unmarried¬†and¬†he¬†is¬†thinking¬†of¬†himself‚Ķ¬†Why¬†the¬†hell¬†these¬†brother¬†and¬†sister¬†didn't¬†think¬†of¬†you..your¬†sacrifice¬†and¬†your¬†happiness‚Ķ‚ÄĚAunty¬†said¬†with¬†all¬†concern¬†towards¬†me¬†during¬†shopping¬†of¬†Nihal's¬†engagement¬†ceremony. "I¬†am¬†telling¬†you¬†that¬†you'll¬†realized¬†it¬†one¬†day.."¬†aunty¬†continued We¬†met¬†with¬†parents¬†of¬†Anushka¬†and¬†finalized¬†the¬†date¬†of¬†engagement¬†ceremony.¬†Everyone¬†is¬†busy¬†in¬†arrangements¬†although¬†I¬†am¬†happy¬†but¬†there¬†is¬†something¬†in¬†my¬†heart¬†which¬†makes¬†this¬†situation¬†filthy...a¬†thought¬†when¬†we¬†went¬†for¬†shopping¬†and¬†I¬†chose¬†a¬†sari¬†which¬†somehow¬†not¬†the¬†choice¬†of¬†my¬†siblings,¬†just¬†because¬†they¬†thought¬†I¬†was¬†not¬†perfect¬†for¬†it‚Ķjust¬†because¬†they¬†found¬†me¬†too¬†aged¬†for¬†those¬†colours..Those¬†words¬†showed¬†me¬†the¬†reality¬†of¬†modernization¬†of¬†relations‚Ķan¬†image¬†of¬†selfishness.¬†I¬†sacrificed¬†my¬†age¬†and¬†years¬†for¬†my¬†sister¬†&¬†brother¬†and¬†they¬†thought¬†me¬†imperfect¬†for¬†having¬†bright¬†colours,they¬†are¬†making¬†their¬†choices¬†and¬†never¬†asked¬†me¬†for¬†my¬†wishes¬†and¬†hoping¬†to¬†live¬†my¬†lives¬†as¬†per¬†their¬†choices‚Ķ. It‚Äôs¬†the¬†day¬†when¬†I¬†decided¬†to¬†let¬†myself¬†free¬†from¬†every¬†responsibility,¬†time¬†to¬†spread¬†my¬†wings¬†in¬†open¬†blue¬†sky¬†to¬†fly,¬†to¬†live¬†life,I¬†gathered¬†myself¬†and¬†step¬†out¬†from¬†all¬†boundaries¬†of¬†life¬†for¬†Alisha‚Ķ. __END__